Sometimes life just doesn't go the way you want it to, even when you feel like you need something the most it can turn the opposite direction and create an additional thing that you weren't prepared to deal with. When it starts to become more than I can handle, the words that always flash in my mind are, "This too shall pass." My life is somewhat simple one would say (I guess) but for some reason lately I get so caught up in how tough it is! After reading my friend, Jill's blog this morning I received some much needed inspiration on how important it is to remember small moments in life.
It's not quite 10:00 am today and I'm already frustrated with the obstacles of motherhood. Especially since I seem to be the only mother that gets frustrated with their children. I really need to stop praying for patience. I think the Lord blesses us with situations to become patient and boy have I been learning this attribute lately! I think I tell Taylor to stop doing something she is not supposed to like a hundred times a day, but at the same time I find myself saying "I love you" even more! I really need to focus more on the reasons why I love my children and not so much how they are so challenging sometimes! This will be a continual effort...I know....but how lucky am I to have the opportunity to do so!
Last night we were watching TV and a powerful thought came into my mind. I can't remember what we were watching, but a mother and her almost teenage daughter (maybe 11 or 12) were sitting at the dinner table having a conversation. At first it was an argument and then it turned into laughter. I couldn't help but think, "Gosh, Taylor is going to be that age before I know it and the power struggles I am going to have with that kid are going to be countless (I can already tell), but I always want us to end things with laughter." How on earth am I going to create joy from anger? I guess that's what life's little trials and struggles are made for. Hopefully I can learn from what I am going through now to prepare me for the future. It's definitely hard to appreciate the blessings we receive when you are going through a tough time, but I know that we are blessed for having them as a part of our lives.
There are SO many things that I need to perfect in my life that it sometimes becomes overwhelming. The main thing that I always want is for my children and husband to know that I love them! That shouldn't be too hard of a task! Right? If I can achieve that, I'm sure everything else will fall into place. As for now, I plan to strive to do the things I need to do to leave smiles on the faces of my children (at least more smiles than frowns is my goal), because if they are smiling I can't help but smile too!
Jordan took the girls to the grocery store the other night and gave me a much needed brake. The house was quiet and I took a nice relaxing bath! They brought me home some bright & beautiful flowers that Taylor picked out herself to let me know they love me and appreciate me! It truly made my night! I'm such a fortunate person to have such a loving & thoughtful family!
P.S. I already feel better after making this post! The frustrations are gone and I'm ready to start fresh! Gotta love being able to express your thoughts!
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I was just reading another blog where my friend was putting her children up for sale. She happens to be the friend that her house is always clean, her children mostly obedient, and everyone is sleeping through the night by week 5. It is insane to realize that even she goes crazy, cause I can't even think of how many times a day I am yelling "AVERY DON'T". Logan then freaks out at the noise and starts screaming...but motherhood is the cure for selfishness, and so it is the only way we are gonna make it. So we grit our teeth through it, and then hopefully when the times are good, we appreciate them. Loved your blog today. You are a great mom, and I'm glad we met.
Megan,
You're such an awesome mom, it's crazy to see that you feel that way sometimes because I'd NEVER guess it! You are so sweet and patient to those little girls and you can just see it in their eyes that they love you so much! It's funny how we ALL go through feelings of inadequacy sometimes. I definitely can relate to everything you said. But truly, at the end of the day, especially when they're sleeping, you just feel and know that they love and need you so much. I love just watching them sleep. It's just a comforting feeling that puts me in a good enough mood to go through it all over again in the morning!
~Klorissa
This is normal to have these feelings raising a family. You will have good and bads days, but the good will out number the bad. You are a great mom and it is fun to see all you do. Time goes by so fast. Try to enjoy all these stages you have with your children. People use to tell us that, and they were right. It does go by fast.
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